Dr. Gaurav Mathur

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Dr. Gaurav Mathur, MD, is a poet, philosopher and cardiologist who loves to explore the core of every issue, the heart of the matter. He lives in Florida with his wife who is a psychiatrist and two lovely children.

The Silence of the Self

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Unask the question
Who am I
Self inquiry is not a process
It is also not the goal
There is no self to inquire
No self to inquire about
There is no inner silence
Silence alone is the truth
Realms inner and outer
Are but castles in air
Silence is our nature
That the play of forces
Seems to disturb
Like an enormous tsunami
Raging fifty feet high
Over Mariana Trench
And every drop of water
In the crashing wave
Has the still of the ocean depth
And the silence of the Self

Read More
Kartavyam

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Karma is also a lie
Presumptuous to assume
That action is needed
To set the world right
Another devious ego-game
Another self-inflicted
Twist of the knife
Another subtle but sure
Hiding place of the mind
And I wake up to look out
From the window of my miniscule mind
A portion of the morning sky
This is the only truth
The only thing to be done
Look without words or imagination
At the fiery morning sun
Castles in the air
Magnificent and beautiful
In which we frolic
You and I
Wake up to see
It was all a dream
You were not there
Nor was I
Just figments of imagination
Of the devious mind
So when they are razed
Why do I feel homeless
Why do I cry
Self pity and blame
Hurt and claim
Movements of the vital
That take us for another ride
Down the same rabbit-hole
Of make-believe and lies
Let’s wake up together
Side by side
On this hard earth bed
And see each other anew
Nay, for the first time

Read More
The Inner Silence

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

The inner silence
Is a fickle Overlord
Creator of all things
Yet so shy and retiring
So soft and still
Yet gentle and caring
That all motion,
Circumperambulation
Seems crude, uncouth
Almost an effront
Indeed, truly, a mockery
Of the infinite grace
That bestows me limbs and vigor
And I, oh so gross so ingrate
Cannot abide in this vast stillness
That suffuses and invades all
Carries and pervades all
For any longer than a mere breath
Which too, it breathes in me
Even this brick wall
That I sit facing
Has more respect in its erect repose
Than I in myriad genuflections
So I sit with bowed head
A grotesque monstrosity
A shameful caricature
Of that perfect perfection
That manifests through me
Arjuna,
Lift thy mighty gandeev
And shower your arrows upon me
Destroy all that is vain and dross and ugly
Pierce these eyes
That seek form outside
Destroy sight forever, return it inside
Yudhisthira,
Blow thy conch anantavijaya
Implode my eardrums
That reverberate to the cantankerous world
Let the inner silence be all,
Let it deafen the world outside
Eklavya,
Sew my lips shut
That no word escapes
Corrupting my innermost truth
In the silent cave of the heart
Expressed, no longer the Absolute Truth
Bheem,
Lift your mighty vrigodharan
Flatten this intellect with thy incessant blows
Rip apart the ego like you did Jarasandha
That only the ineffable self remains
Krishna,
I am now ready
Reveal thy divine beauty

Read More
Mind

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Mind,
Stop this chatter
Stop this search
What you are looking for
Is right here
But you cannot see
And you cannot hear
In your silence it manifests
Loud and clear
Ending of the ego
Is the end of fear

Read More
The Universe and I

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

I sit silent in my chair
Poised with pen and paper
All eyes and ears
Waiting to catch a glimmer
Or the faintest whisper
Of the Eternal
Nothing
And all around me
Chirping birds, flowing water
Rustling leaves, drizzling rain
Distract and divert
Dissuade and derail me
And I achieve, or so it seems
Nothing
Life, the universe
Everything
A grand conspiracy
Overrules my negation
Overwhelms my senses
I am drowned
In a deluge of Being
My peace and quiet
My inner solitude
My silent core
All are hushed by the roaring tumult
Of Life, the universe
Everything
Even the solitary flame within
Quenched by the fiery glow
Of a thousand splendid suns
Blazing forth forever
Life, the universe
Everything
Have consumed me completely
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
There is no outer world
There is no me inside
Only sitting and flowing
Silence and chirping
Paper and leaves
Drizzling and blazing
Nothing and everything
Life, the universe and I are One.

Read More
Deliverance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Deliverance through surrender
Order re-restored
My true self is now in form
Whole, wholesome, pure
Unchanged, or rather back to the original form
Self before me, before time
Unchained, or rather the simple realization
That there were no chains
Except of my design
No inner or outer
And certainly no I in the center
Back to the source, mother lode
My self, struggle, pleasure and pain
Fire and brimstone
Extinguished in a deluge of tears
Strangely salt has made the Self-sweeter

Read More
One Cosmic Dance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Thought and its futility
Are seen
Desire and its pointlessness
Are seen
Fear and its subsidence
Are seen
The unwavering flame of attention
Engulfs all that is
Mind is still, void of content
Ego sinks back in quiet repose
To its source
All is as is
Naturally at ease
And the Self is all there is
A presence within and all around
The benevolent monarch
Calm and eternal
Patient and gentle
Soft and subtle
All-pervading, yet untouched
Creator, mover and destroyer
Of worlds upon worlds
Which are all but itself
Playing with itself
The raas of Krishna
And Shiva’s tandav
Are one cosmic dance
Of the unmoving Self

Read More
I am not

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Victim or victor
I am not
Friend or lover
I am not
Poet or philosopher
I am not
Seeker or seer
I am not
Thought or thinker
I am not
Experiencer or doer
I am not
Do not ask who I am
For I am not
I am not

Read More
The Silence of the Self

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Unask the question
Who am I
Self inquiry is not a process
It is also not the goal
There is no self to inquire
No self to inquire about
There is no inner silence
Silence alone is the truth
Realms inner and outer
Are but castles in air
Silence is our nature
That the play of forces
Seems to disturb
Like an enormous tsunami
Raging fifty feet high
Over Mariana Trench
And every drop of water
In the crashing wave
Has the still of the ocean depth
And the silence of the Self

Read More
Kartavyam

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Karma is also a lie
Presumptuous to assume
That action is needed
To set the world right
Another devious ego-game
Another self-inflicted
Twist of the knife
Another subtle but sure
Hiding place of the mind
And I wake up to look out
From the window of my miniscule mind
A portion of the morning sky
This is the only truth
The only thing to be done
Look without words or imagination
At the fiery morning sun
Castles in the air
Magnificent and beautiful
In which we frolic
You and I
Wake up to see
It was all a dream
You were not there
Nor was I
Just figments of imagination
Of the devious mind
So when they are razed
Why do I feel homeless
Why do I cry
Self pity and blame
Hurt and claim
Movements of the vital
That take us for another ride
Down the same rabbit-hole
Of make-believe and lies
Let’s wake up together
Side by side
On this hard earth bed
And see each other anew
Nay, for the first time

Read More
The Inner Silence

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

The inner silence
Is a fickle Overlord
Creator of all things
Yet so shy and retiring
So soft and still
Yet gentle and caring
That all motion,
Circumperambulation
Seems crude, uncouth
Almost an effront
Indeed, truly, a mockery
Of the infinite grace
That bestows me limbs and vigor
And I, oh so gross so ingrate
Cannot abide in this vast stillness
That suffuses and invades all
Carries and pervades all
For any longer than a mere breath
Which too, it breathes in me
Even this brick wall
That I sit facing
Has more respect in its erect repose
Than I in myriad genuflections
So I sit with bowed head
A grotesque monstrosity
A shameful caricature
Of that perfect perfection
That manifests through me
Arjuna,
Lift thy mighty gandeev
And shower your arrows upon me
Destroy all that is vain and dross and ugly
Pierce these eyes
That seek form outside
Destroy sight forever, return it inside
Yudhisthira,
Blow thy conch anantavijaya
Implode my eardrums
That reverberate to the cantankerous world
Let the inner silence be all,
Let it deafen the world outside
Eklavya,
Sew my lips shut
That no word escapes
Corrupting my innermost truth
In the silent cave of the heart
Expressed, no longer the Absolute Truth
Bheem,
Lift your mighty vrigodharan
Flatten this intellect with thy incessant blows
Rip apart the ego like you did Jarasandha
That only the ineffable self remains
Krishna,
I am now ready
Reveal thy divine beauty

Read More
Mind

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Mind,
Stop this chatter
Stop this search
What you are looking for
Is right here
But you cannot see
And you cannot hear
In your silence it manifests
Loud and clear
Ending of the ego
Is the end of fear

Read More
The Universe and I

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

I sit silent in my chair
Poised with pen and paper
All eyes and ears
Waiting to catch a glimmer
Or the faintest whisper
Of the Eternal
Nothing
And all around me
Chirping birds, flowing water
Rustling leaves, drizzling rain
Distract and divert
Dissuade and derail me
And I achieve, or so it seems
Nothing
Life, the universe
Everything
A grand conspiracy
Overrules my negation
Overwhelms my senses
I am drowned
In a deluge of Being
My peace and quiet
My inner solitude
My silent core
All are hushed by the roaring tumult
Of Life, the universe
Everything
Even the solitary flame within
Quenched by the fiery glow
Of a thousand splendid suns
Blazing forth forever
Life, the universe
Everything
Have consumed me completely
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
There is no outer world
There is no me inside
Only sitting and flowing
Silence and chirping
Paper and leaves
Drizzling and blazing
Nothing and everything
Life, the universe and I are One.

Read More
Deliverance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Deliverance through surrender
Order re-restored
My true self is now in form
Whole, wholesome, pure
Unchanged, or rather back to the original form
Self before me, before time
Unchained, or rather the simple realization
That there were no chains
Except of my design
No inner or outer
And certainly no I in the center
Back to the source, mother lode
My self, struggle, pleasure and pain
Fire and brimstone
Extinguished in a deluge of tears
Strangely salt has made the Self-sweeter

Read More
One Cosmic Dance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Thought and its futility
Are seen
Desire and its pointlessness
Are seen
Fear and its subsidence
Are seen
The unwavering flame of attention
Engulfs all that is
Mind is still, void of content
Ego sinks back in quiet repose
To its source
All is as is
Naturally at ease
And the Self is all there is
A presence within and all around
The benevolent monarch
Calm and eternal
Patient and gentle
Soft and subtle
All-pervading, yet untouched
Creator, mover and destroyer
Of worlds upon worlds
Which are all but itself
Playing with itself
The raas of Krishna
And Shiva’s tandav
Are one cosmic dance
Of the unmoving Self

Read More
I am not

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Victim or victor
I am not
Friend or lover
I am not
Poet or philosopher
I am not
Seeker or seer
I am not
Thought or thinker
I am not
Experiencer or doer
I am not
Do not ask who I am
For I am not
I am not

Read More
The Silence of the Self

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Unask the question
Who am I
Self inquiry is not a process
It is also not the goal
There is no self to inquire
No self to inquire about
There is no inner silence
Silence alone is the truth
Realms inner and outer
Are but castles in air
Silence is our nature
That the play of forces
Seems to disturb
Like an enormous tsunami
Raging fifty feet high
Over Mariana Trench
And every drop of water
In the crashing wave
Has the still of the ocean depth
And the silence of the Self

Read More
Kartavyam

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Karma is also a lie
Presumptuous to assume
That action is needed
To set the world right
Another devious ego-game
Another self-inflicted
Twist of the knife
Another subtle but sure
Hiding place of the mind
And I wake up to look out
From the window of my miniscule mind
A portion of the morning sky
This is the only truth
The only thing to be done
Look without words or imagination
At the fiery morning sun
Castles in the air
Magnificent and beautiful
In which we frolic
You and I
Wake up to see
It was all a dream
You were not there
Nor was I
Just figments of imagination
Of the devious mind
So when they are razed
Why do I feel homeless
Why do I cry
Self pity and blame
Hurt and claim
Movements of the vital
That take us for another ride
Down the same rabbit-hole
Of make-believe and lies
Let’s wake up together
Side by side
On this hard earth bed
And see each other anew
Nay, for the first time

Read More
The Inner Silence

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

The inner silence
Is a fickle Overlord
Creator of all things
Yet so shy and retiring
So soft and still
Yet gentle and caring
That all motion,
Circumperambulation
Seems crude, uncouth
Almost an effront
Indeed, truly, a mockery
Of the infinite grace
That bestows me limbs and vigor
And I, oh so gross so ingrate
Cannot abide in this vast stillness
That suffuses and invades all
Carries and pervades all
For any longer than a mere breath
Which too, it breathes in me
Even this brick wall
That I sit facing
Has more respect in its erect repose
Than I in myriad genuflections
So I sit with bowed head
A grotesque monstrosity
A shameful caricature
Of that perfect perfection
That manifests through me
Arjuna,
Lift thy mighty gandeev
And shower your arrows upon me
Destroy all that is vain and dross and ugly
Pierce these eyes
That seek form outside
Destroy sight forever, return it inside
Yudhisthira,
Blow thy conch anantavijaya
Implode my eardrums
That reverberate to the cantankerous world
Let the inner silence be all,
Let it deafen the world outside
Eklavya,
Sew my lips shut
That no word escapes
Corrupting my innermost truth
In the silent cave of the heart
Expressed, no longer the Absolute Truth
Bheem,
Lift your mighty vrigodharan
Flatten this intellect with thy incessant blows
Rip apart the ego like you did Jarasandha
That only the ineffable self remains
Krishna,
I am now ready
Reveal thy divine beauty

Read More
Mind

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Mind,
Stop this chatter
Stop this search
What you are looking for
Is right here
But you cannot see
And you cannot hear
In your silence it manifests
Loud and clear
Ending of the ego
Is the end of fear

Read More
The Universe and I

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

I sit silent in my chair
Poised with pen and paper
All eyes and ears
Waiting to catch a glimmer
Or the faintest whisper
Of the Eternal
Nothing
And all around me
Chirping birds, flowing water
Rustling leaves, drizzling rain
Distract and divert
Dissuade and derail me
And I achieve, or so it seems
Nothing
Life, the universe
Everything
A grand conspiracy
Overrules my negation
Overwhelms my senses
I am drowned
In a deluge of Being
My peace and quiet
My inner solitude
My silent core
All are hushed by the roaring tumult
Of Life, the universe
Everything
Even the solitary flame within
Quenched by the fiery glow
Of a thousand splendid suns
Blazing forth forever
Life, the universe
Everything
Have consumed me completely
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
There is no outer world
There is no me inside
Only sitting and flowing
Silence and chirping
Paper and leaves
Drizzling and blazing
Nothing and everything
Life, the universe and I are One.

Read More
Deliverance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Deliverance through surrender
Order re-restored
My true self is now in form
Whole, wholesome, pure
Unchanged, or rather back to the original form
Self before me, before time
Unchained, or rather the simple realization
That there were no chains
Except of my design
No inner or outer
And certainly no I in the center
Back to the source, mother lode
My self, struggle, pleasure and pain
Fire and brimstone
Extinguished in a deluge of tears
Strangely salt has made the Self-sweeter

Read More
One Cosmic Dance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Thought and its futility
Are seen
Desire and its pointlessness
Are seen
Fear and its subsidence
Are seen
The unwavering flame of attention
Engulfs all that is
Mind is still, void of content
Ego sinks back in quiet repose
To its source
All is as is
Naturally at ease
And the Self is all there is
A presence within and all around
The benevolent monarch
Calm and eternal
Patient and gentle
Soft and subtle
All-pervading, yet untouched
Creator, mover and destroyer
Of worlds upon worlds
Which are all but itself
Playing with itself
The raas of Krishna
And Shiva’s tandav
Are one cosmic dance
Of the unmoving Self

Read More
I am not

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Victim or victor
I am not
Friend or lover
I am not
Poet or philosopher
I am not
Seeker or seer
I am not
Thought or thinker
I am not
Experiencer or doer
I am not
Do not ask who I am
For I am not
I am not

Read More
The Silence of the Self

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Unask the question
Who am I
Self inquiry is not a process
It is also not the goal
There is no self to inquire
No self to inquire about
There is no inner silence
Silence alone is the truth
Realms inner and outer
Are but castles in air
Silence is our nature
That the play of forces
Seems to disturb
Like an enormous tsunami
Raging fifty feet high
Over Mariana Trench
And every drop of water
In the crashing wave
Has the still of the ocean depth
And the silence of the Self

Read More
Kartavyam

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Karma is also a lie
Presumptuous to assume
That action is needed
To set the world right
Another devious ego-game
Another self-inflicted
Twist of the knife
Another subtle but sure
Hiding place of the mind
And I wake up to look out
From the window of my miniscule mind
A portion of the morning sky
This is the only truth
The only thing to be done
Look without words or imagination
At the fiery morning sun
Castles in the air
Magnificent and beautiful
In which we frolic
You and I
Wake up to see
It was all a dream
You were not there
Nor was I
Just figments of imagination
Of the devious mind
So when they are razed
Why do I feel homeless
Why do I cry
Self pity and blame
Hurt and claim
Movements of the vital
That take us for another ride
Down the same rabbit-hole
Of make-believe and lies
Let’s wake up together
Side by side
On this hard earth bed
And see each other anew
Nay, for the first time

Read More
The Inner Silence

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

The inner silence
Is a fickle Overlord
Creator of all things
Yet so shy and retiring
So soft and still
Yet gentle and caring
That all motion,
Circumperambulation
Seems crude, uncouth
Almost an effront
Indeed, truly, a mockery
Of the infinite grace
That bestows me limbs and vigor
And I, oh so gross so ingrate
Cannot abide in this vast stillness
That suffuses and invades all
Carries and pervades all
For any longer than a mere breath
Which too, it breathes in me
Even this brick wall
That I sit facing
Has more respect in its erect repose
Than I in myriad genuflections
So I sit with bowed head
A grotesque monstrosity
A shameful caricature
Of that perfect perfection
That manifests through me
Arjuna,
Lift thy mighty gandeev
And shower your arrows upon me
Destroy all that is vain and dross and ugly
Pierce these eyes
That seek form outside
Destroy sight forever, return it inside
Yudhisthira,
Blow thy conch anantavijaya
Implode my eardrums
That reverberate to the cantankerous world
Let the inner silence be all,
Let it deafen the world outside
Eklavya,
Sew my lips shut
That no word escapes
Corrupting my innermost truth
In the silent cave of the heart
Expressed, no longer the Absolute Truth
Bheem,
Lift your mighty vrigodharan
Flatten this intellect with thy incessant blows
Rip apart the ego like you did Jarasandha
That only the ineffable self remains
Krishna,
I am now ready
Reveal thy divine beauty

Read More
Mind

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Mind,
Stop this chatter
Stop this search
What you are looking for
Is right here
But you cannot see
And you cannot hear
In your silence it manifests
Loud and clear
Ending of the ego
Is the end of fear

Read More
The Universe and I

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

I sit silent in my chair
Poised with pen and paper
All eyes and ears
Waiting to catch a glimmer
Or the faintest whisper
Of the Eternal
Nothing
And all around me
Chirping birds, flowing water
Rustling leaves, drizzling rain
Distract and divert
Dissuade and derail me
And I achieve, or so it seems
Nothing
Life, the universe
Everything
A grand conspiracy
Overrules my negation
Overwhelms my senses
I am drowned
In a deluge of Being
My peace and quiet
My inner solitude
My silent core
All are hushed by the roaring tumult
Of Life, the universe
Everything
Even the solitary flame within
Quenched by the fiery glow
Of a thousand splendid suns
Blazing forth forever
Life, the universe
Everything
Have consumed me completely
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
There is no outer world
There is no me inside
Only sitting and flowing
Silence and chirping
Paper and leaves
Drizzling and blazing
Nothing and everything
Life, the universe and I are One.

Read More
Deliverance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Deliverance through surrender
Order re-restored
My true self is now in form
Whole, wholesome, pure
Unchanged, or rather back to the original form
Self before me, before time
Unchained, or rather the simple realization
That there were no chains
Except of my design
No inner or outer
And certainly no I in the center
Back to the source, mother lode
My self, struggle, pleasure and pain
Fire and brimstone
Extinguished in a deluge of tears
Strangely salt has made the Self-sweeter

Read More
One Cosmic Dance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Thought and its futility
Are seen
Desire and its pointlessness
Are seen
Fear and its subsidence
Are seen
The unwavering flame of attention
Engulfs all that is
Mind is still, void of content
Ego sinks back in quiet repose
To its source
All is as is
Naturally at ease
And the Self is all there is
A presence within and all around
The benevolent monarch
Calm and eternal
Patient and gentle
Soft and subtle
All-pervading, yet untouched
Creator, mover and destroyer
Of worlds upon worlds
Which are all but itself
Playing with itself
The raas of Krishna
And Shiva’s tandav
Are one cosmic dance
Of the unmoving Self

Read More
I am not

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Victim or victor
I am not
Friend or lover
I am not
Poet or philosopher
I am not
Seeker or seer
I am not
Thought or thinker
I am not
Experiencer or doer
I am not
Do not ask who I am
For I am not
I am not

Read More
The Silence of the Self

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Unask the question
Who am I
Self inquiry is not a process
It is also not the goal
There is no self to inquire
No self to inquire about
There is no inner silence
Silence alone is the truth
Realms inner and outer
Are but castles in air
Silence is our nature
That the play of forces
Seems to disturb
Like an enormous tsunami
Raging fifty feet high
Over Mariana Trench
And every drop of water
In the crashing wave
Has the still of the ocean depth
And the silence of the Self

Read More
Kartavyam

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Karma is also a lie
Presumptuous to assume
That action is needed
To set the world right
Another devious ego-game
Another self-inflicted
Twist of the knife
Another subtle but sure
Hiding place of the mind
And I wake up to look out
From the window of my miniscule mind
A portion of the morning sky
This is the only truth
The only thing to be done
Look without words or imagination
At the fiery morning sun
Castles in the air
Magnificent and beautiful
In which we frolic
You and I
Wake up to see
It was all a dream
You were not there
Nor was I
Just figments of imagination
Of the devious mind
So when they are razed
Why do I feel homeless
Why do I cry
Self pity and blame
Hurt and claim
Movements of the vital
That take us for another ride
Down the same rabbit-hole
Of make-believe and lies
Let’s wake up together
Side by side
On this hard earth bed
And see each other anew
Nay, for the first time

Read More
The Inner Silence

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

The inner silence
Is a fickle Overlord
Creator of all things
Yet so shy and retiring
So soft and still
Yet gentle and caring
That all motion,
Circumperambulation
Seems crude, uncouth
Almost an effront
Indeed, truly, a mockery
Of the infinite grace
That bestows me limbs and vigor
And I, oh so gross so ingrate
Cannot abide in this vast stillness
That suffuses and invades all
Carries and pervades all
For any longer than a mere breath
Which too, it breathes in me
Even this brick wall
That I sit facing
Has more respect in its erect repose
Than I in myriad genuflections
So I sit with bowed head
A grotesque monstrosity
A shameful caricature
Of that perfect perfection
That manifests through me
Arjuna,
Lift thy mighty gandeev
And shower your arrows upon me
Destroy all that is vain and dross and ugly
Pierce these eyes
That seek form outside
Destroy sight forever, return it inside
Yudhisthira,
Blow thy conch anantavijaya
Implode my eardrums
That reverberate to the cantankerous world
Let the inner silence be all,
Let it deafen the world outside
Eklavya,
Sew my lips shut
That no word escapes
Corrupting my innermost truth
In the silent cave of the heart
Expressed, no longer the Absolute Truth
Bheem,
Lift your mighty vrigodharan
Flatten this intellect with thy incessant blows
Rip apart the ego like you did Jarasandha
That only the ineffable self remains
Krishna,
I am now ready
Reveal thy divine beauty

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Mind

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Mind,
Stop this chatter
Stop this search
What you are looking for
Is right here
But you cannot see
And you cannot hear
In your silence it manifests
Loud and clear
Ending of the ego
Is the end of fear

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The Universe and I

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

I sit silent in my chair
Poised with pen and paper
All eyes and ears
Waiting to catch a glimmer
Or the faintest whisper
Of the Eternal
Nothing
And all around me
Chirping birds, flowing water
Rustling leaves, drizzling rain
Distract and divert
Dissuade and derail me
And I achieve, or so it seems
Nothing
Life, the universe
Everything
A grand conspiracy
Overrules my negation
Overwhelms my senses
I am drowned
In a deluge of Being
My peace and quiet
My inner solitude
My silent core
All are hushed by the roaring tumult
Of Life, the universe
Everything
Even the solitary flame within
Quenched by the fiery glow
Of a thousand splendid suns
Blazing forth forever
Life, the universe
Everything
Have consumed me completely
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
There is no outer world
There is no me inside
Only sitting and flowing
Silence and chirping
Paper and leaves
Drizzling and blazing
Nothing and everything
Life, the universe and I are One.

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Deliverance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Deliverance through surrender
Order re-restored
My true self is now in form
Whole, wholesome, pure
Unchanged, or rather back to the original form
Self before me, before time
Unchained, or rather the simple realization
That there were no chains
Except of my design
No inner or outer
And certainly no I in the center
Back to the source, mother lode
My self, struggle, pleasure and pain
Fire and brimstone
Extinguished in a deluge of tears
Strangely salt has made the Self-sweeter

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One Cosmic Dance

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Thought and its futility
Are seen
Desire and its pointlessness
Are seen
Fear and its subsidence
Are seen
The unwavering flame of attention
Engulfs all that is
Mind is still, void of content
Ego sinks back in quiet repose
To its source
All is as is
Naturally at ease
And the Self is all there is
A presence within and all around
The benevolent monarch
Calm and eternal
Patient and gentle
Soft and subtle
All-pervading, yet untouched
Creator, mover and destroyer
Of worlds upon worlds
Which are all but itself
Playing with itself
The raas of Krishna
And Shiva’s tandav
Are one cosmic dance
Of the unmoving Self

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I am not

Dr. Gaurav Mathur

Victim or victor
I am not
Friend or lover
I am not
Poet or philosopher
I am not
Seeker or seer
I am not
Thought or thinker
I am not
Experiencer or doer
I am not
Do not ask who I am
For I am not
I am not

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